my ultimate goal is to be at peace with myself, eliminate toxic feelings and elements and energies from my life, unlearn negative and harmful practices and thought patterns, stop checking for people that don’t check for me, create a space for myself that is nurturing for growth so that i may generate loving energy for myself and for others, nourish my spirit and balance my energies, i have big dreams and i deserve to live a life i love and let that love radiate
2014 has by far been the shittiest year ever. I’ve gone through stress after stress after stress. never dealt with a heartbreak like this. I know he’s probably not thinking about me what so ever but it hurts. having to see the one you love everyday and act like everything’s okay. its hard. and what kills me the most is knowing that it will never ever work out. he messed up, I messed up. we messed up. fuck. I gotta go.