literally fuck everyone who throw the word depressed or depression around. it’s not a fucking joke. I hate being depressed. I hate having to take fucking medicine because everything that could possibly go wrong wants to happen at the same fucking time. I hate having to set alarms for pills. faking a smile is my profession. not being happy is not something I like showing off. i want to be the old cheery happy me again and i know that someday i will. I’m gonna deal with all these bad things going on in my life. idk how else to deal with them so i type. an fucking type till i can’t type anymore. because I’m not going to let depression take over me. i know its only temporary. i’ll be okay. and for anyone else out there going through depression, so will you.
my ultimate goal is to be at peace with myself, eliminate toxic feelings and elements and energies from my life, unlearn negative and harmful practices and thought patterns, stop checking for people that don’t check for me, create a space for myself that is nurturing for growth so that i may generate loving energy for myself and for others, nourish my spirit and balance my energies, i have big dreams and i deserve to live a life i love and let that love radiate